Lochi

I'm leaving this page up just so that I can be found elsewhere! I'm not gonna update it anymore and haven't for along time anyway. 

Come on down to tumblr an twitter and follow lochichichi if you like! Thanks for all the support I got from my dA followers! It means a lot!  Hopefully some of you find your way over <3


-Lochi

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My Mama is coming to visit me in a few days. For those of you who know me, you know this is a huge gigantic deal because I haven't been able to see her in 3 years. That's a long time to go without seeing your mom. ;__;

It has come to my attention, however, that my living situation while not the worst in the world is problematic for my mom coming to visit. I don't have food (cannot afford it) I don't have many household supplies and we are behind on bills. I don't want her to worry or be stressed while she is here which is why I'm trying to find a waaay to alleviate stress from both of us (as well as my roommate)

I can't take commissions right now because I have a few on the burner and it is finals week and I'm in the last stretch of school before graduating. I can however try to sell stickers and posters! Which is what this post is about.

SELECTIONS - lochichi.tumblr.com/image/5158…

Posters = $10 + $3 shipping
Stickers = .75c each (minimum 5 stickers) + 2 shipping (5 international)

I cannot do international shipping on posters 8( Sorry.

If you're interested please email me at lochimo@gmail.com (also my paypal)  or PM me here.

Any interest is appreciated 8)

I feel as if my commissioners here are probably wondering what's taking so long. I would like to apologize and say that I am doing my best and I have not by any means forgotten about you. If you follow me on tumblr then you might already know whats up. But if you do not and you are wondering I'll make a very quick recap.

I have recently in the last two months or so become very sick. Well, I've always been sick but its just starting to actually surface and take a toll on how I perform my duties and responsibilities. I don't have insurance so I've been struggling to find proper treatment. The NORMAL treatment for the condition I can identify is not working in the least. For what myself and apparently the clinic I've been going to cannot identify I have no treatment for. I have no means of getting testing or treatments because I have no insurance and hospitals refuse me service because I am poor and cannot afford thousands of dollars in testing. I am often in debilitating pain or in a state of perpetual and difficult fatigue. Its serious, is all that I know and its been distracting, worrisome and the symptoms are leaving me useless at times. SO, I do my best and pray that its not cancer or something to that effect. I opened up commissions on top of my pre-existing commissions where all the money goes to me getting insurance so that I can get testing and whatever treatment that comes after that. I'm very close to my goal and very grateful for the generosity of my followers and friends. ( And YES I have done a TON of research to see what I do and do not qualify for. Yes, I'm pretty much versed on the ins and outs of insurance and policies for unemployed, independent  students. I've found just about the only option that I qualify for and as much as I appreciate the concern and support do not want links to things I don't qualify for and have already read about.)

I want to say to those people who I already owe commissions to: You come first. I have not forgotten about you. You have not moved to the bottom of the list. I just want to ask for your patience and faith and thank you for what you have given me so far. Please continue to bare with me.

Here is a list of those people from dA from before so you know I've still got you:

1. Done, in route.
2. 90% done
3. 40% done
4   started
5. started
6. started
7.

Thank you very much. I'll try to update more often. Sorry for the inconvenience.

-Lochi

I'm 23 today.

Thank you for the subscription! That's very very nice of you, thank you so much! You're awesome and will always BE awesome! <3

And thank you everyone else who wished me a happy birthday. I appreciate it! 8)

-Lochi

So I've been majorly busy. Let me just start off by addressing my commissioners. I have no forgotten about you. I think about you every day. My heart burns for you. Litterally, >_> the anxiety is killing me. But! I want you to know that I appreciate you being so patient. This is the busiest quarter I've had of school in a long long time. I've got about a month left. Come June, EXPECT your orders.

So...Yeah. School is busy stuff. I'm both really enjoying it and somewhat struggling. But I'm managing. Eh...I suppose I'm making a journal update because I HAVE been so busy and I needed to pause to put some thoughts somewhere so that they are no longer weighing ME down.

So I'm about a year behind in school but I'm back on track. But it didn't really hit me very hard how much I'm going to miss all of my friends who are leaving. One by one, I've lost or been left behind by every single friend I made at the beginning of my college career. And come June they're headed off by the boat load. It provokes a lot of anxiety thinking that I won't see them ever again, likely. Some of them, i'll think about forever and others of them I'm just sad I didn't get to know better. I feel like I missed an awful lot of opportunities in the last three or four years. I feel like I could have asserted myself more and become a bigger or better part of other's lives or let them into mine. And I didn't. I've spent much of my time indoors or asleep. So I guess I'm feeling a lot of regret with that anxiety.

I'm also not going back to Oregon this summer. I don't know when I'll ever go back to Oregon again if I don't go back this summer. Recently in thoughts of Oregon, I feel less and less like it is my home. Everything stays the same. No one goes anywhere or does anything at all. And it never feels different when I go back but every time I do I feel like this lone traveler, rolling back through town and staying in a stranger's house.  I just end up spending more money on things I don't want and less time on things I could stand to do. But I also feel like by the middle of the summer I'm gonna wish I were there and not here. But I need to crack down. I need to spend three months of my free time building a portfolio and making short films for my resume. If I don't take this opportunity to do that then I'm afraid that I won't go anywhere or do anything and all the money and time I spent on my degree will be for absolutely nothing. I'll just go back anyway and get a job that doesn't pay HALF as much and has nothing to do with my degree. An art teacher probably. So I guess i'll have to tough it out. I'll miss my friends.

Hopefully I can get work around here though. Its so hard to get steady work. fffff no I'm thinking too much through my journal. so I'll just end it here with, Yes, I'm very busy but no I'm not dead. Thanks for sticking around.

-Lochi